Father, I know that You have all things in Your hand. I understand that in Your omniscience You know the end from the beginning.
I love You so much and I trust You, and yet this overwhelming sadness grips me like a storm cloud which follows me everywhere. Suddenly, when my weeping begins once again , it’s as if the cloud has opened and must rid itself of the rain within.
You grant me a reprieve from the numbing sadness. Crying is therapeutic and I thank You for allowing us to work through these times in our lives with tears when nothing else seems to help.
“Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted” (Matthew 5:4).
Everyday I wonder when Yeshua will come to gather us away from this earth. Father, some days I feel that I cannot wait another moment for You. But then You remind me in Your Word that Your ways are not our ways – that Your ways are so much higher. Oh Lord, I’m trying so hard to be patient.
Lord, why am I feeling so exhausted? Weeping does tire me out. I must lay down after this because I feel so weary. Only You can give me the rest which I so desperately need.
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28).
Sometimes when I talk with You and read Your Word, I expect that I will soon feel happy again; but Lord, I don’t. What is wrong with me? Are You Upset with me Father?
“For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning” (Psalm 30:5).
If You asked me Lord, why I am weeping and so cast down; I would tell You that I feel like my heart is breaking – especially for the lost. My own children have turned from You and that breaks my heart. I pray for them everyday and I know that You love them even more than I do.
“The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.” (Psalm 34:17-18).
Lord Yeshua, the world is in such chaos. I know that You see it. When I think about the coming months, I do feel a sense of dread. I feel powerless and sometimes shaken to my core. I feel like I am failing You during these times.
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever” (Psalm 23).
Why am I fretting over these things? You know my thoughts before I think them. You knew me before I was knit together in my mother’s womb, and You know everything about me. The One Who knows me best – Loves me most. That is amazing, but the sadness persists.
“Lord, all my desire is before thee; and my groaning is not hid from thee. My heart panteth, my strength faileth me: as for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone from me”
My sin is ever before me. I know that I have not done things which You have asked of me, and I have been angry with others. Why can’t I control my thoughts and emotions? Why can’t I always remain in Your will?
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).
I’m so tired of living in this body of sin. I dream of having the body that can never sin, never die – a resurrected body.
“For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4: 16-18).