Lord: Sorrow Washes Over Me

Father, I know that You have all things in Your hand. I understand that in Your omniscience You know the end from the beginning. 

I love You so much and I trust You, and yet this overwhelming sadness grips me like a storm cloud which follows me everywhere. Suddenly, when my weeping begins once again , it’s as if the cloud has opened and must rid itself of the rain within.

You grant me a reprieve from the numbing sadness. Crying is therapeutic and I thank You for allowing us to work through these times in our lives with tears when nothing else seems to help.

“Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted” (Matthew 5:4).

Everyday I wonder when Yeshua will come to gather us away from this earth. Father, some days I feel that I cannot wait another moment for You. But then You remind me in Your Word that Your ways are not our ways – that Your ways are so much higher. Oh Lord, I’m trying so hard to be patient. 

Lord, why am I feeling so exhausted?  Weeping does tire me out. I must lay down after this because I feel so weary. Only You can give me the rest which I so desperately need.

 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28).

 Sometimes when I talk with You and read Your Word, I expect that I will soon feel happy again; but Lord, I don’t. What is wrong with me? Are You Upset with me Father?

 “For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning” (Psalm 30:5).

If You asked me Lord, why I am weeping and so cast down; I would tell You that I feel like my heart is breaking – especially for the lost. My own children have turned from You and that breaks my heart. I pray for them everyday and I know that You love them even more than I do.

The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.” (Psalm 34:17-18).

Lord Yeshua, the world is in such chaos. I know that You see it. When I think about the coming months, I do feel a sense of dread. I feel powerless and sometimes shaken to my core. I feel like I am failing You during these times.

“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.  Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever” (Psalm 23).

Why am I fretting over these things? You know my thoughts before I think them. You knew me before I was knit together in my mother’s womb, and You know everything about me. The One Who knows me best – Loves me most.  That is amazing, but the sadness persists.

 “Lord, all my desire is before thee; and my groaning is not hid from thee. My heart panteth, my strength faileth me: as for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone from me”

My sin is ever before me. I know that I have not done things which You have asked of me, and I have been angry with others. Why can’t I control my thoughts and emotions? Why can’t I always remain in Your will?

 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9).

I’m so tired of living in this body of sin. I dream of having the body that can never sin, never die – a resurrected body.

 “For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first:  Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words” (1 Thessalonians 4: 16-18).

Shalom b’Yeshua

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21 thoughts on “Lord: Sorrow Washes Over Me

  1. I am Susan

    My dear sister in Christ, our hearts are so akin to each other. My thoughts are so like yours we could be identical twins in our minds. I thank you so much for this message. It has given me comfort to know that you feel as so many of us do; that although we are saved by the precious blood of Christ and know of his great love, and have the hope and assurance of salvation, it is still
    so difficult to live in these times of apostasy. How wonderful it is for you to remind us of these verses that, I know, have brought blessings to me, and to others who will read your post.

    I feel lonely for the company of other Christians. I live in an urban city where there are no churches that teach the Word correctly, I can’t bear to enter them. So, I listen to good teachers and preachers on YouTube, and read good sites such as yours and this is how I am encouraged in these last days. I admire you for your courage to stand firmly for Christ in the face of such
    opposition and how you share your thoughts with us, your family in Christ. Thank you, Geri, you
    are blessed and beloved.

    Please pray for me that I will be as brave as you are in speaking out for the Lord. I need to witness to my neighbors who are very unfriendly. I want to befriend them and show them the Way.
    Yet, I don’t even attend a church. What kind of a witness is that? I wish I could start a Bible study for women in my home but I don’t know how to reach out to them. I hear guns going off all around me and baying dogs threaten nearby. I, a woman, am vulnerable in this neighborhood. What do I do? Yet, I know that God has an answer for me.

    One last note: I know that we are truly blessed to live at such a time in HIStory. This is what the
    prophets of old wrote about, this is of what Christ spoke, this is what the writers of the New Testament epistles wrote also. We are the ones who are seeing it all come to fruition. Although the wicked think that they are going to overcome, WE are the overcomers, WE will see their utter
    failure and sorrow at the end. WE will be the triumphant throng, singing praises to the Living,
    Sovereign King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Halleluyah! Amen!

  2. Ambassador For Jesus Christ

    You are not alone sister, many of us saints feel the same way as you do.
    We will all be home with our Lord Jesus Christ soon enough!

    1. I am Susan

      Yes, we will be with our Lord Jesus Christ at the appointed time. Until then we wait soberly, alertly, and patiently while we encourage each other with our prayers. Blessings to you!

  3. Hallelujah Maranatha and Amen-Amein!! JESUS-YESHUA CHRIST-MESSIAH is KING of kings and LORD ( ADONAI ) of lords / HE is the ALPHA and OMEGA / HE is the BEGINNING and the ENDING / HE is the FIRST and the LAST!!

    Love <3 Always and Shalom, YSIC \o/

    Kristi Ann

  4. Thank you

    Blessings in Christ,

    Dear sister in the LORD


    Shana Tova as we go into Rosh HaShana

    May we meet around the sea of glass.

    I have no more words but I know God does keep our tears in a bottle and they are precious to Him

    Psalm 133

    King James Version

    133 Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!

    2 It is like the precious ointment upon the head, that ran down upon the beard, even Aaron’s beard: that went down to the skirts of his garments;

    3 As the dew of Hermon, and as the dew that descended upon the mountains of Zion: for there the Lord commanded the blessing, even life for evermore.

  5. Sweetie, I understand. Sometimes I grieve to the bottom of my soul. We all cry out to the Father to send the Son but there are still those to find salvation an healing thru the Holy Spirit call. This gives me some comfort in having to wait until His time. I am in prayer constantly for my Brothers and Sisters and their families, for respite and peace. Love in Christ Jesus.

    1. Hi Bonnie,

      I like your comments as well as others:)

      I call my daughters sweetie although 2 of them do not talk to me. Not a lot of family does.

      Not complaining, just a statement of fact but I noticed that other women like me and you and Geri and Joy and I am Susan and others.

      My prayer is that we could be a bible study in these last days and pray for one another to encourage one another as we see the day approaching:)

      B/c I know that I depend on blogs like this and other you tube ministries in order to survive spiritually and emotionally in these days.

      The scripture is paramount but so is prayer and fellowship.

      Not sure how to go about it but it would be wonderful if we could remember to hold one another up in prayer as we only have each other.

      What do you think?


      1. I am Susan

        Hi Melanie,

        I am Susan. I would be so thrilled to join a Bible study with you and Bonnie, Joy, Geri, and any others who would like the same. I am so lonely for the fellowship of Christian women. I am so
        touched by your thoughts.

        I call my kids “Sweetie” too, and thankfully I am close to my daughters but I do not get to
        see them often, nor my sons, but we women really need fellowship with each other with
        Scripture and prayer and friendship. Your friendship would be such an answer to prayer for me.


  6. Joy D'Andrea

    Dearest Geri. Sometimes I feel all alone in all of this and then read your blog and the beautiful comments above and then I am encouraged once more to carry on. I look forward to meeting all of you in the soon coming rapture. How glorious that will be, but this thought is often marred knowing that my children, grandchildren and all of my family are new agers and my husband included. I depend on your blogs and others on YouTube . Thanks again Geri for being so vulnerable.

    Your sister in Christ

  7. Hi Bonnie and I am Susan and others

    I am not tech savy at all

    but I can check out blogs and you tube

    my e-mail is mem_mck@cablelan.net

    that is my main account

    I live in a small village by a lake in BC

    There must be a way to do this even as we see the day approaching.

    I guess I could start with just that

    my e-mail address and then we can go from there.

    I have heard of zoom as I watch and pray along with other Christian organizations that are praying

    on zoom but I am not sure how it works

    Just to exchange e-mails and to pray for one another concerns would be a good start

    Share scripture and what the LORD is placing on your heart.

    That is all I have to say for now.


    I am praying for all of us:)


  8. Also I like to sing to the LORD
    not that I have a good voice but LORD talks to me through song
    Like this morning
    Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus
    Just to take Him at His word.
    Ps 56v11
    In God I have put my trust; I will not be afraid

    Robert J Morgan puts out books that explain the stories behind the hymns
    This volume is Then Sings My Soul

    Louisa M. R. Stead was born in 1850 in Dover, England
    She accepted the LORD at age nine
    She went to USA when she was about 21 years of age
    She wanted to go to China but her health was too frail.

    Her husband rescued her little daughter but drowned in the process
    Then she went to South Africa as a missionary and that is where she wrote this song.

    She remarried and was a missionary there with her husband but again her health
    forced her to return to the usa
    again the LORD spoke to her and her husband at a missionary conference and they put their names forward and went to Rhodesia
    She wrote in 1901 on April the 4th
    that her sufficiency was in God. ( I am para phrasing here or I would be writing a book:)

    She retired in 1911 and died in 1917

    We will see her in heaven:)

    They were Methodists and her daughter lily married missionary D. A. Carson.
    They continued the work.

    My best friend for about 2 years before she moved away.
    Was from Rhodesia(now called Zimbabwe)
    Her name was Ruth.

    blessings in Christ

    Dear sisters in the LORD.

    1. I am Susan

      I have the same book! I love the way it explains how so many beautiful, biblical hymns came to
      be written! It was given to me by a dear friend in Christ. What a nice thing that we have the same book. My email is susan.hounshell45@gmail.com. God is faithful: he is answering the cry from
      my heart. Thank you so much, Abba Father!

      Blessings my dear sister in Christ.

  9. Wow!

    That is so super cool:)

    I love my book and I gave one to my daughters and they live in vancouver and when they minister to people they sing from it and use it.

    Please pray for me as I am going up north

    My family is not saved.

    thank you

    I will get ahold of you when I get back.

    Last night I posted about the hymn
    Praise God, from whom all blessings flow.

    It is wonderful:)

    God bless you and please keep in touch
    Thank you
    I will be gone for one week but back next monday:)


  10. I am Susan

    Most of my brothers and sisters are not saved either. Thankfully, I know that my daughters and one son are saved, however, I’m not absolutely sure about my youngest. He professed faith in Christ at one time but now
    he changes the subject when I mention Jesus. Will you pray for him?

    Although this song is not in the book we both own, one of my favorite hymns is ” Be Still, My Soul”. Have you
    ever heard it? The lyrics are: Be still, my soul: The Lord is on thy side;
    With patience bear thy cross of grief and pain.
    Leave to thy God to order and provide;
    In ev’ry change, he faithful will remain.
    Be still, my soul: Thy best, thy heav’nly Friend
    Thru thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

    Be still, my soul: Thy God doth undertake
    To guide the future as he has the past.
    Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
    All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
    Be still, my soul: The waves and winds still know
    His voice who ruled them while he dwelt below.

    Be still, my soul: The hour is hast’ning on
    When we shall be forever with the Lord;
    When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
    Sorrow forget, love’s purest joys restored.
    Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past,
    All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

    (text: Katharine von Schelgel b. 1697, trans. by Jane Borthwick)
    (music: Jean Sibelius, 1965-1957

    This hymn really comforts me because events that have happened in my life and the events that are happening in the world now are wearying to the soul and this hymn based on Scripture is so full of God’s truth.

    I know that you are on a trip right now, but I wanted to share this while this was on my mind. I will
    tell you more about my life when you get home and get a chance to contact me.

    Blessings in Christ Jesus,


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